Love My Skin Improvement

I look so feminie on this picture that I took yesterday before we went to church. I am thinking whether I should post this as my FB profile picture or the other one.

I just love taking picture of myself to see the improvement of my skin. I just love the way the depigmenting cream improved the appearance of my Post Acne Dark Spots. I really hope my skin will continue to improve.

No Choice

Do I have a choice? Maybe I do but the choice that I want to choose might hurt some people that I love. I will just stay with the way things and just try to enjoy my life with other things, safely. I dont think things will be different. It will always be as it is.

Someone In Exchange

After my vacation in the Philippines, I will be working on something that will change our life that can be good or bad for us. However, it will be another start of our life and I hope it will lead into something better.

It sometimes makes me feel rebelious inside and ask myself WHY? But I still couldn't see and find the answer until now. It made me feel that this is the choice of asking him to give me SOMEONE, in exchange of SOMETHING valuable that I had before. But is this SOMEONE really worth it? after all the pain and distrust?

Hope To Help Heal

He is trying to work things out and I really hope this will end my insanity. I am trying my best to stop my insanity but I can't do it alone. My heart has been hurt so much to heal the pain on my own. I really hope he will continue to help me to stop my insanity. I know there is always a chance for us I just need him to make it for me or for us. I just can't do it all alone anymore

Guilty, Happy and Lost

Guilty and happy, what can I say. I feel fulfilled. I feel wanted. I feel special. I feel sexy and beautiful. I feel satisfied. I feel free. But I know somewhere I should feel guilty and maybe I do...but somewhere I don't. I only feel afraid simply because I dont want to hurt someone's feelings. I dont feel LOVE and being LOVED anymore. Maybe I do feel LOVED but not ready for this kind of love yet. I am confuse where to go and what to do. I want to be free but I dont know how. I will leave everything to GOD. And if I did something wrong, I ask for his forgiveness. I hope he will make me feel and show me the right path because I am so LOST.

Insane Material Desire

A new insane thoughts for material things. Quite tempting and interesting experience but who knows? Am I that pretty? Am I that worth it? This is really giving my ego a big boost for my age. A temptation at this time of my life that we are having some financial trouble. Giving me full attention that makes me feel so important and valuable like a princess. I want to enjoy life while I can. I know know this is insane.!!! But who knows?

Fixing The Broken

Confuse but something tells me something. Not everyone that I think that needs it will just simply grab it. Some people just need it simply as part of LOVE and caring. I am so thankful for God's guidance for giving me the right people to be behind my confusion that was cause by pain and sorrows. I don't know if the PAIN can be healed or will I ever find the LOVE that I once found. Or will I ever stop finding solution of this lost LOVE. Or did I ever felt the LOVE at all. It's been broken and I don't know how to fix it anymore.